Monday, March 09, 2020

Kidney Saga part 43

Nightmares over and over of falling. Every time I wake from a nap, I'm falling. Rage crying, and jags of weeping for no reason.

Trying to stay calm whenever I need to get up and go to the toilet. Not able to center myself most of the time. A serious disconnect from my own body.

Inkwell hovering on my chest purring and trying to keep me calm.

Overwhelming thirst. Need to stay in my fluid restriction, but trying hard to keep my mouth from getting too dry.

Terror of falling. Using the cane to try to stay stable, but still worried all the time. Legs feel like they don't belong to me.

Everything is disjointed. I can't even connect my mind to my words. I'm just going to go back to bed.

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Dwight Williams said...

Empathy to you. It's all I can give from this distance, and I'm sorry for that.

Roger Owen Green said...

Feeling badly for you. My FIL has been falling a lot - lymphoma, and he's 83 - so it's undoubtedly more frustrating for you, who's much younger.